The Beginning of the End

I had a something called a Zenit to write for religion class; 2 pages, double spaced summary/evaluation type thing. Working on it, working on it, almost done, and then the power goes out! I waited for about a half hour, and we called the company and they said it wouldn't be on for another 2 days. D: So, I light this antique oil lamp in out kitchen and wrote my paper by lamp light. Granted, it wasn't typed, but my teacher understood thank God. It was actually kind of nice, because I took my time, and it was a very calm experience. And alot of fun on top of it =)

First of all, Rise Against covered Making Christmas http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sy8HmVO3MWM
Secondly, ARGH. College visits + school + work= I HAVE NO LIFE. I have so much to say, tell, read...post. =/ *sigh* Miss you all! <3 This whole pre-college thing sucks.

*blowkiss* Happy October to all! =D Hope to talk to you all after Novemeber is out. By then, I should be done filling out applications. O_o HOPE.
Now, off to write two minimum of 5-page papers. D: Wish me luck.

ps. Breat cancer awareness month, and halloween! Both two very important things. One, fighting a cause is first and foremost, and halloween just rocks. ;P

^_^ 

17 on the 17th! *dances* 

Maybe I can get my license by then. =D

I can't wait. Only one more week!! *blow kiss*

Anyone want to find me a good boy as a present? ^_~

AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES OMG YES! I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS SINCE I HEARD IT! :D

This is my favorite song off the album thus far, and I love it. =D
This totally made my day. ^_^_^

Watch, and love.

 WHAT THE HECK?! I haven't posted since Jineh13's birthday?!?! We'll change that, but...later...when I don't have to get up in a few hours to bake, and when I don't have physics homework. I have Soooooo much to fill you all in on!! ^_~

Happy Birthday Jinxy! 



<3,
 me

Hey hey hey!
Dude, 3rd quarted is finally over. One more, and then I'm a senior. OMG I'M GONNA BE A SENIOR! WTF WHERE THE HELL DID TIME GO?!?!?! *cry/whine*

*ahem...* Anyways, let's see. I sang at my cousin's baptsm this weekend, and everyone was like "zomg, you have such a nice and strong voice!" ....^_^ Then, we had her first birthday party at a bowling alley. We had a cool time, and my thumb hurts like hell from 4 games in a row. I think I bruised my bone. X3 Oh god, my aunt had this place decked out. the high chair was decorated, the walls were lined with a poster for each month 1-12, fancy cloth table cloths, like, 100 balloons, treats and treat bags with thermoses, 12 pizzas, salads, snacks, 30 bottles of pop; all for 90 people. ^^;;; I think it was a little overdone, but hey. Oh my god, and she had plastic neon colored pimp hats for everyone. Mine was hot pink with a black band around it. I kinda wanted to snag a zebra striped aqua one, but I forgot to. :P I might have to post a picture of it later. I look pretty damn smexy.

Hahaha, speaking of that, Chy and I went for a 3 hour walk today. We had a blast, as simple as it may sound, but it was a good time. Along the way, we had 4 guys honk and wave at us whom we ahve never even seen before. XD We're just like wtf? We even distracted some basketball players from their game. Lolzers, SCORE! It's good to have unknown admirers, you know? Just a confidence boost. :3

My mom is considering getting me voice lessons again, over the summer. I'll probably pick up french horn lessons and piano too if I bring in enogh money from my job. I need to stay busy this summer so I can keep on track instead of slacking off so much. Last year I really let myself go with doing nothing, and even as enjoyable as that was, I didn't want to have what happened ths year be next year, so I must keep the work pace up.

Amanda and I went to the mall last night and we walked around and went prom shoe shopping. OMMG CUTE SHOES but THEY HURT LIKE A MOFO! That's why I hate heels. My feet just weren't meant for them. Ever. But we had a general good time. I needed to get out of the house. I had cabin fever, and I have literally sitting there saying I'M SO BOREDDDDDDD!! *whine* So we went out for a bit.

And then, last night I had this really bizzare dream that I might make into a one shot/short story fanfic.

the general points so I can write about it later and I'll post it for those who might be interested.
-I was turning into a vampire
-Gerard and Mikey were there
-Gerard and I really related...alot.
-invovled teeth falling out(and it's weird becaues they actually hurt when I woke up), churches, rain, make up, gothic century dress, closed stores, and exorcism, and a hook up. It was a very interesting story line because it had all those details and whatnot. Besides becoming a vampire (unless you can) it was very realistic. I can't wait to write it up.

And, I got a call today from this kid Brenden in my chem class. ^_^ God he's so cute, and sweet might I add. We had some homework and he forgot it and wondered what it was. We talked for a bit but I had to go because he had dinner. ^^;;; I hope I get another chance to.

Hm...what else. I finally have a whole bunch of shizznat done. But of course, there's still more to do. ^^;;; Oh well.

OMG PROM IS IN 3 WEEKS!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! THERE'S SO MUCH TO DOOOOOOO!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Damn damn and double damn. Oh well.

Welp, I think that's all for now. My life's still pretty boring, so. Yeah. Enjoy! I must go do religion homework and chem. Toodles!

ello ello ello luvs! How I've missed you all! I lived through musical, thank god, but now I have like, 1000+ messages to sort through. Bleck.

Let's see...what has been going on that isn't musical...

Got a haircut the other night. Nothing major, jsut a trim so I don't look so shaggy for the bastism.

Sick again, another URI. Not fun, because now it's causing those nasty migraine headaches... Hate those. Those are the ones that strike you and you have to lay down with 4 Advils in your system and an icepack to your forehead to just kinda numb the pain. HATE THEM WITH A BURNING PASSION...and I've had 2 in 3 days. Ew.

I have a shizznat load of homework due when I come back from break. I was going to work on it these past 2 days, but sadly, these headaches have stopped me from doing so because of my pounding head. :/ So, tommorrow I hope to get something done, hopefully. List of stuff that I can remember currently:

-Sari
-5 Current events
-Cultural article
-Chem. Powerpoint
-read more about country and make notecards
-revise papers
-lab report
-art magazine cover
-something else, but I can't remember now.

Yeah...

Musical has ended, so I kinda have life again. Today, I went to the doctors, only to find out I have another URI and I have a case of eczema on my foot, so that's fan-freaking-tastic. Not bad, just really itchy and looks bad, but it's just an allergic reaction to something that caused a rash, so doctor hooked me up with some stuff to hopefully cure it. :) Yeah! So I can wear flip flops without being so concious of my feet. :/

Oh! And I went shopping, and of course, about 1/2 hour into our trip, my migraine came back. But, I continued on, and I bought these and some jelly sandals. Love them both, and I'm so excited about them! XD I haven't had jelly sandals since I was, like, in 3rd grade. :3

What else. I have the hosue to myself tomorrow, thank god, but my mom will be home soon enough unfortunatly. Like, I love my parents on most days but I love having my alone/friend time. But, I will have to spend it doing homework because of these stupid migraines!! God they're annoying.

What else...Chris was planning to come out for musical. He reserved a seat, got a rental car, and was going to fly out for the night to come see the show. But, there were not round flights available in the time slot he wanted, so therefore, he didn't make it out here. :/

Erm, what else...The shows went relativly good. Sunday we bombed almost big time, but I actually only messed up slightly, so I was pretty happy. X3 Sadly, they taped sunday, sooooo it's on there for life.

Um...I dunno. I'm kinda out of stuff to say right now. Musical dominated my life for the past 3 months, so I really have nothing but that and school, so, yeah.

MCR concert in April I can't go to. =( *REALLY BIG SAD FACE!!!* This honestly makes me want to cry. My mom promised mext time they came near here, we could go. Now, she says I can't, and this is their last tour till after 2009. :( I Want to gooooooo. Plus, I'd get to hang out with jinxeh13! How awesome would that be?!

So yes, now that you know how pathetic my life is and all that, it's good, right? Wrong!
I feel like I should be saying something else, but I can't think of a thing! Damn, I can't bore you much longer with my life. XD

Dude, ps. Anyone who knows someone single in the area looking for a prom date, *bats eyes* That would be cool! Preferably rocker, piercings, all that jazz... ^^;;;

So yeah. I think I'm offically done rant/raving now, so yeah! Good for you!
*hugs everyone*

*cries* MUSICAL IS OVER!!!! It is a sad sad day to see come, but yet a relief at the same time. I'm glad I'll have more than an hour to do homework, but at the same time, I'll miss everyone so much. I made alot of new friends this year, and I'm so happy I did. Our head costume mom will be grately missed. When they announced her name, I started to tear up...alot. I felt so pathetic, but you know, for her, it's worth it. She is like a mom to me, lol, hence her name Mama C. She's always been there for us, and she did such a wonderful job. <3

This means World Lit. giant ass project is due soon. Soon soon. Like, I should be working at 2am instead of writing this type soon. procrastinates

Oh, and darkrunner, guess who I think likes me? Guess...if you can't, think...erm..."like a board game. Everyone cheats". NOW do you know? I think I may get strangled...

Lots of shizznat is due next week. Tests, projects, all that jazz. It's insane. All tyring to get stuff in before break. :P

Guh, and I'm getting sick again. I have a horrible sore throat. I hope I can catch it before it gets big and turn into a full fledged cold.

I miss everyone already... Gotta find a program for everyone to sign...

I have alot of stories, but those come later because I just fell asleep while typing. You know you're tired when....damn. I smudged my Egypitan eyeliner...Oh well.

Toodles till later!! <3

I just got in a fight with Amanda.

I feel like the scum of the earth.


Today has just been a really wierd day. First, I had a dream that I was eating pancakes with Matt and his dad. Here's how it went:

Dad: We should go the Caribbean with youth group
Matt: I don't really want pancakes. I'm not that hungry....but they're warm. Mmm....
Dad: Don't you think the Caribbean would be fun?
Matt: *pours syrup over 4 pancakes* *takes bite* Omg, these are good. Lauren, you should eat some!!
Me: Eh, I'm not really hungry, and I don't really care for pancakes...
Matt: But they're warmmmmm and fluffy and yummy.
Me: *examines pancakes* Maybe just a bite...
Matt: They're so good *shoves another bite full*
Me:*stacks 3 pancakes and pours syrup readying to eat*

Then I woke up.

Then, at school, out of the middle of nowhere, a flock of like 30+ seagulls were circling a school parking lot. Like they were vultures.... strange... Then, as we were like "OMG SEAGULLS!! NOOO!!" more came in, to make it like a group of 50. "THE SEAGULLS ARE COMING THE SEAGULLS ARE COMING!!" Then, they dissapate, flying off in all different directions. It was quite random and bizzare...

Then, I got a pink slip in art app. because I was chewing gum. Apparently I wasn't paying attention because I was too tired, and my art teacher caught me. Yes, my fault, but never before has she ever done that to me. SHe would tell me to go spit it out, and that's only happened twice in my entire HS career. Wtf... I dunno. My first pink slip ever. =( There goes my perfect record. EVEN the V.P. lets me slide. My art teacher and I used to be good friends, like student/teacher wise, but I guess not anymore.

Then, like, chem teacher won't explain anything to us and we have a test wednesday, and I need to get notes off someone....

Religion, we watched a chastity video, and on it they were talking about cervical cancer and whatnot, and that truely freaks me out. My grandmother died of it, and now I'm scared I could contract it. :/ You never know...and what about the HPV shot? I hope that really works, otherwise it caused me all that for nothing...

Art class was awkward...my teacher was considering not letting me go down to do scenery painting but then when someone else wanted to go, she was more then willing to let us go down. I'm so confused. I haven't changed have I? To make her treat me differently than before? *shakes head* I'm so confuzzled.

Then, we had play practice. By the time we got started, we had to leave. On the way home, my mom and Amanda tag teamed me about getting points, and I was on the verge of a mental breakdown in the car by this point today. That was the straw that broke the camel's back. I put in my headphones and turned up the music so I could concentrate on not crying and making a mess of myself. I never want anyone to see me like that. I hate it. I don't want to be weak, but there's onyl so much one can take, you know? I was trying to be nice, but she was in a mood because she couldn't find her pre-calc stuff and we have a test tomorrow. When she found it, she still was in a mood, and I couldn't figure out why. THen that pissed me off because I was trying to be nice about everything, but I am not a saint. I knly have so much patiece without cracking. I didn't want to spazz out on anyone, so I just sat there quietly facing the dark window, trying to supress my tears. It wasn't working. It took over a half hour to do so. By the time we got to her house, she was in tears too because she tried to talk to me, and I just had to block her out. If I started talking, I would start crying and shit like that, and I don't want that. Especially. Then we came home and my mom started fighitng with my dad, and I got to hear all that. Momo shouting, dad shouting, me having a mental breakdown. God what an ora my house must be emitting. Then my mom came practically charging upstaris. "Why Won't you talk to me?!? Just because I poitned out that you shouldn't have been chewing gum?!!" No, not that, but because I was breaking down in the car and I needed alone time that I couldn't get to because YOU wouldn't shut up! She wouldn't leave me alone, and I just cracked. I noticed when Amanda was leaving, she was in tears too. That killed me. I didn't mean to hurt her, at all. I jsut needed some time so she wouldn't see me like I am now. I was almost hyperventilating because I was so upset. I jsut want time, and I can't get it. Now that my mom knows I'm upset, she is coming up here like every 15 minutes. "Do you want me to do something?" LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!! "Okay!" *15 mintues later* "How you doing?" "GO AWAY! PLEASE! ALL I WANT IS ALONE TIME!" "Alright!" and the pattern continues. I just wat time to spazz before I continue my day. I was supposed to do homework, btu I've been to pisesed off to do anything. I'm so frustrated right now I can barely type correctly. Damn.

So yes. That is why I feel like scum.

 hey guys. I probably shouldn't be here since I have 2 papers due tomorrow, buuuuuuuut, I am, and that's enough. Did that sentence make any sense...? At all? If you got it, you deserve cookies. *chocolate chip cookies with vanilla pudding in the batter is inserted here*

I should be writing my paper....but I have severe writers block. Maybe it'll come out here... maybe. 
I'm so tired of writing pointless shit that I'm never going to use again, ever. i mean, wtf?! When will I need my opinion on the comment BELL HOOKS made on education?! WHEN!?! Next tuesday of never, that's when. The community, the opressor, the teaching strategies. Guh. All so....boring! Oh well, that would be education for you! They even say that in the text. I have to work that in....somehow. Okay, I actually thnk my block is gone because I see words comeing to my head to type about this crap. Woot! Thank you LJ for another writers block down. Who knows, I may be back later depending on how this goes... ^^;;;;

Huzzah all nighters! -_- Oh well, yes it's my own fault, but I honestly sat there staring at my computer for 2 1/2 hours trying to think of what wto write. I got enough for 1 paragrapgh, but nothing I could go off of, so I erased it and started again. Now I finally have something dec. so it should be okay. Myabe.I suck at writing anyways so it's all good. I can't find much for my secodn topic, but who cares. I'm tired and I want to finish. :P

Love!
lAuReN 

(wow, suprisingly that alternating text is driving me up a wall, but for the sake of BELL HOOKS i will leave it. I think I'll write my name on my paper like that. X3 World lit, you know what I mean. =D)

 

Go forth and be happy! Thanks to the MCRmy for supplying these.

Well my friends, I think my life has gone to hell and back.
We started band practice on Saturday at 9am, for which I had to get up t 7am. =_=
To top it all off, the painters came in that morning, so that was fun, feeling my diaphragm hurt going down to there.
Can you say Le ouch?!
Yeah, that was fun...
Then yesterday, I felt like crap, I was losing my voice, so I went in an hour later to wait for the meds to kick in.
Also, I had my double chem day (1 1/2 hours of chem teacher), we had to go to mass, AND it was a Monday.
Plus I had to stay after school for 2 hours to help with applications.
That was fun, running up and down a flight of stairs 15 times, yeah......anyways.
I skipped musical practice and when I got home I curled up by the electric fireplace with a blanket and chillaxed because I felt so bad, and the fact that I only had an hour of sleep the night before because I couldn't stop coughing wasn't really helping, along with the fact that my Actifed made me drowsy.
Yes, watching 7 hours roll by on the digital clock was soooooo amusing, honestly. -_-
So I passed out for a couple hours and that helped me to feel better.
Then about 10pm, I realized I had 5 pages of chem homework to do, and about 2 dozen problems in pre-calc to do, plus finalize a project for french class.
Well, I stayed up till midnight, finished it, and then attempted to sleep.
Even though I had an Actifed and 2 Advil in my system, I still felt crap, and this morning around quarter till 5 was the worst.
I started getting this really terrible cold sweat, and I was so cold it was to the point where I had the heater on, 2 thick fleece blankets, and a comforter, and I was still shivering.
Then, I woke up a couple of hours later sweating, like literally, and I practically had to jump out of the covers and strip to get cool.
They say with fevers you fluctuate like that, like menopause. Lol
SO then today I had a healthy balance of meds every 4 hours, Vitamin Water, and Pop-Tarts. Yummy!
My fever is starting to go down...this morning it was 101.2, and now it's what...100.8 if I'm not mistaken, so it's working on it.
I don't think I'll be going tomorrow, as much as I want to, being a special week and all, and getting to dress down, but I still feel miserable, and I can't stop coughing and blowing my nose.
Guh, I hate being sick, especially with the painters in. :P
I mean when it hurts to just exist, honestly. ._. Even my eyelids hurt. *dies*
And I guess we did alot in school today.
In chem, the teacher told us that the way she taught us was wrong, we had to relearn it, and she taught something new, which is undoubtably wrong.
Then we had a huge paper due Monday, and thurday, and all day friday is band festival.
Then sunday I have ot serve, but I might have to call other people because I'm not going to really have the time.
And to top it all off, our chem teacher moved the "quiz" to monday too.
So I basically will ahve no life for the next couple months.
There's so much to do, and not enough time.
I have to get cracking tomorrow on homework, even if I feel like shit.
If I have this extra time, I need to utilize it, even if it means being miserable.
I have a to-do list that spans the entire length of a piece of paper that all needs to be done by March-ish.
Anyone have any Mardi-gras float ideas?
Lol, and would a Can-Can theme be school inappropriate? ^^;
I think it'd be cute, but others might find it slutty. Oh well.
Hmm...that's just one of the many things I have to do.
That, and get back my voice.
I couldn't talk today for a couple hours, and finally, after Amanda told me that we watched the Christmas play video
(which has many many many close ups of me!! *dies* All because my dad filmed it and I gave my teacher a copy because he wanted one...I did make it all neat. Penguin main menu playing song of the heart, and the play button is a still shot of the main characters)
in class, so thank god I wasn't there.
I woulve turned 800 different shades of red, because he's in there, so omg, that would've been mortifying. ^^;;;
But I was here, dying from the flu, or whatever is attacking me.
Then, my french project was due today, but I wasn't there, so I e-mailed a copy to my teacher and to one of the other girls in the project group.
But it ended up that only one out of the 3 girls were there, so he postponed ours till thursday. =)
So, today I layed around next to the fireplace with blankets, pillowes, Pop-Tarts, and water watchin TV.
God, can't stop coughing. DAMN IT STOP!
*sigh* Oh well, I suppose I should try and get some rest.
Toodles guys!

Yeah. Updates later, maybe this weekend. *sigh* I hope.

I can't beleive there hasn't bee a proper update since the 7th of January! *boom!* That's a very very VERY long time for me to not write. Maybe that's why I had a nervy b. on my mom yesterday? Trust me, all things shall be explained...once there is time, and energy for that matter. ^^; Miss you f*list!! *hugs* Promise I'll be back soon.

Well, Chris almost got killed today in a car wreck.

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3rd time near-death experiance for him, and yeah. :P

Omg, yeah. Those are comforting words to hear when you talk on the phone to someone for the first time in a day or so: "I almost got t-boned today by a semi."

WFT??!?!?!?!?!!!

Yeah. Nearly had a heart-attack. and then some.

He's okay, and so is his car, but it needs transmission something or another, so he refuses to drive it now. X3 Poor Sylvia. (aka his car)

So now he's freaked out, and so am I. Lol.

But it's all good in da hood yo. ;p

*waves hi to f*list*

*pets LJ* God I've missed you.

I'm sorry I haven't been around much lately. Life has started to catch up with me, especially with mid-terms. I hope to do a proper update over the weekend luvs. For now, just a little something I stole from mjls. That will have todo for now, for I need sleep. I have school tomorrow and whatnot. And, I still have homework to do. :P Bleckers. Oh well. C'est la vie. Toodles!

What Lauren Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

 Today was strange.

I had an affair with a black stage curtain, got cheated on by it, and remarried to it withing an hour.

And, there was slug in the kitchen. Ew. 

Running on 45 minutes sleep, so yeah. Almost died in first period, falling in and out of sleep. 

Stayed up till 5:15am, got up at 6am, went a full day of school, 3 hours play practice, home, homework, shower, crazy insane moment, here.

Almost had a nervy B in chem. My hands were shaking because I was so angry. I have never before in my life been so angry. 

That is all.

ps. I want to beat the frosh with music stands.

pps. Gardasil sucks.